The Tao Of Kaizen Motherhood

Ambition and Laziness Going Hand in Hand Ever since I knew myself, I wanted more. I had the ambition to reach the stars. I wanted to buy more of land, have more money, work more, have more friends, have a bigger house, travel more, just more more more. Ever since I knew myself, I also was very lazy. I studied last moment before the day of exams. I cleaned right an hour before guests arrived, packed right before a trip. Picked my clothes when they were enough mess to bother me. Cooked food when I was hungry. Completed projects when they were due. The only thing that I ever did on time when I was a kid was my homework. I would complete it in the recess and then come home and play. I did not like homework at home. I wanted to have fun after school. Ever since I knew myself, I was also a workaholic. I worked and worried way too much about everything about my work. I signed up for everything and was the “yes” person. I would always know what other five people in the team are doing and their work. At home, though, I was ok. I was not raised to be a house frau. I was raised with a lot of house help. We had someone to wash dishes, wash and fold clothes. Our clothes would be ironed by the laundry guy few doors down. We also had a cook. To get up and start cleaning from start of the day till night does not come naturally to me at all.   I always thought it was not necessary to have organized spaces, but I feel very different about it now.   Having Kids and Change in Perspective – No Time To Be Lazy And Still Wanting More Out Of Life   As soon as I had kids, my last minute work has not helped me with my need of doing more. I was raised with a lot of house help too so the need of being so responsible was never felt until five years ago when I had my son, and his needs became the highest priority in our lives. My whole outlook towards life has changed.   I have to be more prepared for kids’ food and activities and even mine to schedule things around their activities and nap times. I have to make sure they always have clothes to wear and myself too. I have to think about health consciously as I want to be active with them for as long as I live and I want them to make healthier choices too.   I also want to increase my patience and become calmer in my attitude towards my children. I think I am sometimes so swamped in thoughts that it becomes harder for me to understand their attitude. Being compassionate towards their feelings is going to be my biggest why on why I want to make changes in my life. …